Paralysed in the Purple Zone

The title of this post reflects somewhere I've been stuck all too often over the last few years and somewhere that I keep trying to escape, and yet I keep being pulled back into, like a whirlpool that won't let me go. An area of stagnation.

It's something I'm trying very hard to get out of...

I'm not going to dwell too much on the past in this post. That will come later. But what I really want to do is tell you about my hopes for the future and how I want to climb out of this "no man's land".

So things have changed a lot over the last three years. Moving house. Relationships that didn't work out. I got a bit lost thinking I was something I wasn't. I didn't see it at the time, but I lost a little bit of who I was. I found myself once again in that "purple zone". A bit directionless and looking for something to grab hold of and something to help me rebuild myself.

I met someone. Someone I loved with all my heart. But I'm not going there. Not today. It's too painful...

So where am I going next? Well, I have a Doctor Who podcast called 'What's in the Box?' that you can find here: https://anchor.fm/drwho-whats-in-the-box and also on all good podcasting hosts like Spotify, Apple Podcasts, etc... Each week I talk to fans about some of their favourite things from the Doctor Who universe. At the time of writing 60 episodes have been released as well as a handful of specials and I don't see myself stopping any time soon.

I'm also intending on starting up my writing again. I've left my work languishing for too long. Projects such as "The Haunting of Polly Webster" and "The Ghostwood Chronicles" will be worked upon soon...

I'm also still running. I finally completed a Half Marathon again back in September. I'd trained for two years for it with lots of ups and downs, but finally completed it in 2 hours and 11 minutes. I was overjoyed and I can't wait to push myself further. And talking of running, I'm also looking at pushing my fitness some more. I'm not entirely happy with where I am at the moment. I just want to tone up a bit. Strengthen myself a little. Whether that's the gym or going back to swimming I don't know. I guess I'll figure it out as I go along.

Eventually I hope to have my own place. That may be a house. It may be a nice little apartment. But that's a goal for the new year hopefully. And on top of that, after 16 years, I finally left my job and started a new one. And I couldn't be happier. I actually love going to work every day and feel like I'm a part of such a lovely, welcoming team.

And above all else - I'm a dad. My little boy means everything to me, and he will always be the most important thing in my life. He's going to be seven soon and is such a clever, sweet, kind little boy. I can't wait to see him grow and learn over the next few years.

So yeah...that's where I am right now. It's not plain sailing, but I have people in my life - friends, family and loved ones. I have goals and I have building blocks. Now I just have to learn to put those blocks together to rebuild the staircase that will get me out of this purple zone.

Oh, and here's the "Purple Zone" song itself...

Until next time...